Question: I am a beginner in meditation. I am very good on the second time, I feel so relieve and at peace. I’m going to the fifth time but nothing was as good as the second time. Why is it so?
The reason is very simple. You are bringing your mind with you and you compare. You are saying why is the 5th time is not as good as the 2nd time? When comparison comes in, expectations and mind comes in.
You were at peace on the 2nd time because there was no comparison and no expectation. Do not remember the experience you have before but experience the moment-to-moment or rather seconds-to- seconds you are having. This moment is special to you and to you only. In fact, every breathing seconds to a human being is special because there is no single moment that is going to repeat in your whole life journey and there is not a single person in this world that is having the same life as you are. Even twins who look alike will not lead the same kind of life.
There are so many obligations and commitments on the outside, just that hour of mediation, embrace that hour that you have for yourself, experience your being. There is no comparison, no expectation but experience the gift universe is giving you, experience the life that flow through you. Have you ever thought why do you deserve this gift?
Being a beginner will not determine you have lesser of meditation experience but with tremendous life understanding and clarity will definitely lead you into the right path.
Do not expect, do not think, do not compare, eventually that moment will come to you but before that you cannot force it to happen.
© by Xunler at http://lifejourneyanswer.com
—As a disciple from great masters, XunLer is a meditator since 1999. You can find more of her works in http://lifejourneyanswer.com—